Monday, March 13, 2006

I WANT TO STOP HURTING

I think I'm sinking deeper and deeper,sanity slipping away.

I take things way too seriously.

AND I still feel crappy from yesterday.She's avoiding me,unsurprisingly.

If she's mad at ME,I probably won't be surprised,'cos I'm feeling that way.

I feel so retarded.

I can't do an "intellectual" job in the future,because I'm as thick as a bloody brick.

I think I even screwed up my english paper.ENG-BLOODY-LISH!

Its not good enough.AND my classwork would probably drag it down even more.

I've been feeling that way for the past couple of days,always feeling like I'm not smart enough,not good enough,like I'm always darkening the mood,etc.

I don't want to go back to being morbid and depressed,feeling like a walking corpse day after day.I've felt what its like to be happy and cheerful and I like it,but these few days I've been feeling like I'm slowly dissolving.

Where the hell can I go in the future with these bloody results?

Probably a carnival freak show.

or a mental institute.

If you don't see me at school tommorrow,

I've probably jumped off a building.

Goodbye.

wished on a star at 9:49 PM